Where did 10 years go?

10 years have come and gone since I last blogged. It honestly feels like 3-5 years. My kids have all grown up and moved out of the house. 2 have graduated college and one will join them this spring. I have worked, quit work due to lyme disease, healed myself, then most recently...cancer.

Lymphoblastic Leukemia 

Which is where 3 of those 10 years went. 2 years prior to that were a blur due to Covid.  So, in reality, it has been 5 years real - non apocalyptic time that has passed I guess. 

Now, as I write we are back under the reign of terror that is "President Trump" (Yes, I too just threw up in my mouth).  I paused here to figure out when the inauguration day was. Realizing it was only 4 days ago made me feel even sicker. 4 days and he has already managed to strip away the rights of so many and set our progress back 80 years.  "our progress" being that of anyone who isn't a straight white old man.

This is not what I want to write about, but it is what is consuming my mind right now.

What I need to focus on (instead of the regime) is what I want to do instead:

I want to rediscover my hobbies

Train myself to get back outside (that used to be where I longed to be before the internet)

Read more

Watch more shows and movies

Work on making my house what I want/ need it to be as an empty nester

Make time to go out of town to see my kids and enjoy their towns

Slow down

Breath

Get on top of paperwork, bills, spendy (these are far reaching goals for me...but maybe!)

So, I didn't come here looking to complain about the new regime, or to talk about my cancer (such an exhausting topic), or even to discuss my new focus, it seems that is what I have done.  I honestly came here to find a recipe I posted once....over a decade ago) 

But, now that I'm here, maybe I'll use this space to put feelings to words and clear my brain some.  maybe...... or maybe it'll be 10 more years until I'm back?